Beautiful baby. I longed for you, ached for you.
I loved you from the minute I knew you were growing inside me. I didn't yet know who you were but you were my baby.
When you were born I was overwhelmed with love and wonder, and a deep, deep desire to protect you. No-one was meant to hurt you my child.
I failed, as every parent is bound to fail. We cannot keep you from sorrow or pain how ever hard we try.
You have been my life - my joy - my reason for living.
You are grown now my son. And it is I who has hurt you most. This was not my intention and it cuts me to the core to know that I have lost you.