Saturday, 5 March 2011

Natalie Rose

They say time is a great healer, yet the pain still cuts as deep today as it did twenty nine years ago today. Every moment of that terrible day is etched on my heart. I thought my life would end. But it didn't, and whilst today is a sad day, I will try not to dwell on the sad memories.

I will celebrate her short, sweet life. I will remember her soft,warm skin on mine. Her beautiful baby scent. The way she looked straight into my eyes with her own big brown eyes whilst feeding.

I will remember the overwhelming love she evoked in me. The joy she gave me and the sense of being complete for the first time in my life.

This day twenty nine years ago was the worse day of my life, but those preceding sixteen weeks were some of the best days of my life. I will always be sad that those days came to such a sad and sudden end, but I will always feel so very lucky to have known my beautiful baby girl.

Natalie Rose, still missed, still loved.


  1. Dear Julie,
    Time will never reduce the pain of that moment 29 years ago, but I know you rejoice in those 16 weeks of pure love. That second between life and death has never stopped you living a great life or prevented you being a wonderful mother to your sons.
    You have a great capacity to love, your life has brought you here and will you carry you forward to where ever you are destined to go. Natalie is part of that life and the gifts she gave you will always enrich you.

    I love you

    Philip X X X

  2. Dear Julie,
    And during this reflective and poignant time, full of mixed emotions, I send you peaceful and respectful thoughts.
    In kindness, your friend, Gary xxx

  3. Dear Gary,
    thank you for you kind comment.
    In love, Julie. XXX